每一个个体从出生开始就注定了死亡,注定经历各种病痛,每人经历的病痛不尽相似,更是不可自己选择。有人反抗它逃避它,企图残暴地把它从自己身体里驱逐;有人平心静气地接纳它,不做一点反抗等它宣告自己的命运;有人接纳它的同时爱护自己,慢慢地把它从自己身体里剥离;也有人知道有些病痛剥离不了,敞开了心与之相处,过好简单而纯粹的每一天。
《依然爱丽丝》中的爱丽丝,事业有成,家庭和睦,却因为父亲的遗传而患上了早期阿尔兹海默病,自己是语言学家她不得不接受即将到来的记忆障碍,语言障碍……。原本记性很好的她在演讲中突然忘词,会迷路,开始在自己手机里设置问题让自己回答,忘记小女儿最爱吃的面包布丁的做法,到后期,忘的事情越来越多,已经问过的事会一遍一遍地接着问。
刚告诉丈夫时,他安慰她不会有事的,她粗暴地打断他,她大声地说知道自己是什么感觉,说着说着就忍不住哭泣。即使隔着屏幕我都能感受到她来自内心的绝望,因为自己卓有成就,所以愈加接受不了自己痴呆的模样,更何况,她真的还年轻。
确诊之后
这应该不是一篇影评,因为除了电影之外有太多的个人感情,全程基本都是揪着心,时不时也跟着红了眼。电影之后,实在很想写一写。
片中的爱丽丝,让我想起母亲,三个月前永远离开的母亲。
母亲所患即是爱丽丝曾经赌气想要得的“癌症”。那个爱丽丝口不择言的当口,作为观众,真的很想冲进镜头,抱住她的肩膀,很严肃且郑重地告诉她,“癌症真的一点也没有更轻松。”是的,周围人会惋惜,会理解,来安慰,来开解,但是渐渐你会发现这些都是那么无足轻重,或者说,当生活真的比你想象得要糟糕的时候,再明媚的阳光也会失去颜色。而那带来永恒黑暗的致命一击就是,面对生命离开时的恐惧和绝望,肉体的苦楚与折磨,以及对自己意识与肉体全方位的失去控制。当生命最后只是显示屏上的一串波浪时,真正可以体会到其中的脆弱与无奈,你甚至没有办法去选择体面而又有尊严地离开,当躯体慢慢失去曾经承载过的意识与自我控制,那么一切都是无能为力的绝望。
母亲一如爱丽丝般美丽而优秀,可能在每个女孩儿的心目中,母亲都是完美的存在。她独立、聪明、冷静、从容
「I know what I'm feeling! I know what it's feeling and, and it feels like my brain is fucking dying. And everything I've worked for in my entire life is going. All... all going.」
「I wish I had cancer.
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Don't say that.
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No, I do. I mean it. I mean, I wouldn't feel so ashamed. People have cancer they wear pink ribbons for you and go on long walks and raise money, and you don't have to feel like some kind of a... s...social ... I can't remember the word.」
「When I was a little girl, like in second grade, my teacher told me that butterflies don't live very long time. They live like a month or something, and I was so upset and I went home and I told my mother and she said yeah, but you know, they have a nice life, they have a really beautiful life, so, I know it always makes me think of my mother's life and my sister's life, and to a certain extent, of my own.」
“依然爱丽丝”我想念我自己
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